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In Search of Destination – Short Story by Waqaroptimist


In Search of Destination – Short Story by Waqaroptimist.

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In Search of Destination – Short Story by Waqaroptimist


He stood up, hanged his bag on the shoulder and headed towards the exit door. He began to search door-lock keys in his jacket’s pockets. After searching all the pockets of his winter coat finally he got them in his front pocket of jeans. The moment he was about to lock the door, phone rang inside the house, He thought “Shit I was forgetting my phone at home well thank it ranged on time”. He opened the door again and crossed sofa reached to the dining table where phone was ringing and revolving around the table due to vibration. Before he could see who was calling message beeped in. It read as “ Will miss you and Good –Bye”. He felt like a current crossed from his whole body at once. He thought to reply back that “I will miss you too and that I will always remember you as my dear one and you will always remain in my heart” but without replying back he put his phone in his pocket.

A yellow cap taxi arrived and he waved his hand for stopping it. The driver looked like African and had dark face, aged about 40 years old.

Taxi Driver : “ where “

John : “Airport”

Taxi Driver: “Ten dollars – no less”

John : “ OK lets go ”

Taxi was floating on road on a constant speed and he saw trees crossing by in a fast rhythm. He had mixed feelings inside his heart. He was happy that he is going to united States for higher studies. He was sad that he is leaving his home behind. His mother who is old now and didn’t want him to go. One sister who was still minor to whom he loves a lot. All the friends with whom he had shared beautiful memories. A journey from childhood to being a young boy. And there the airport came.

Taxi Driver: “ Here we are young boy”

John : : Oh! Here is your money and thanks”

He rushed towards Airport with quick steps. He smiled and waved to the security guard who was standing on the main entrance. Security guard waved and smiled back and opened the door for him. He politely said thanks and moved on.

He put a glance over information board and saw that it is one hour remaing in his flight. He sat at the nearby bench in waiting room and began to look around. Airport was full of people , some coming some going and some waiting like him. On his left was a table and on which he saw Time Magzine and Barrack Obama’s picture on it. He leaned forward and took it. He randomly checked the newspaper and began to read article written by ” Zakir Hussain” and someone interrupted by saying Hello.

Girl “Hi”

John “Hello”

Girl ” Can I sit ?” she said smingly

John ” why not” he said and moved to the corner of the bench

Girl ” Its my first air flight”

John ” By the way where are you going”

Girl ” To New Jersey – to see my mother”

John ” Great!”

And for a while both didnt talk and announcement echoed the airport- “Attention passangers ! Flight No. AJ-271 is ready for New Jersy, Please come in departure lounge” . John gathered his belongings and said with a smile ” Here it is” and they headed towards the aeroplane. John thought it was another casual meeting and like many faces he saw come and go it was same incidents. People meet for a whle and then disappear for never meeting again.

To be continued!

Sachal Sarmast Poetry – Mystic


I’ve read all I had to read

What more is left to read?

O You who have knowledge of those who are oblivious

Break the spell of separation

The cup of Love brings immortality

Whoever drinks it conquers death

Once you’ve discerned the Signs and learned the way to live

All else becomes meaningless

O You who have knowledge of those who are oblivious

Mend this broken heart

O Lord

Winning…

You’ve spent all your life winning

Now you should lose, humble fakir

The worth of victory may be substantial

But the worth of losing is priceless

Remember, Sultan Bahu, whoever did not accept defeat

Will remain without a guide or pir

Noble Hussain accepted the will of Love

In Karbala, witness the devotion of Love

In Karbala, witness the will of Love

I was lying fast asleep, beloved

Who knocked on the door?

I was lying fast asleep, beloved

Who knocked on the door?

I woke up all of a sudden

Sachal Sarmast had come to my house!

SachalSarmast

Beloved, across the river

The camel-driver did not stop and lower the camel to the ground

Beloved, across the river

The camel-driver did not stop and lower the camel to the ground

Neither did I get a chance to even sit awhile with my lover

Nor did I get to stay with him for a single night

Allaah hu Alahu Allah Allaah hu Allaah

 

MY PERSONALITY EVALUATION!


INTERPRETATION NOTES

Your Social Boldness: Introverted VS Extraverted
You are quite introverted. Socially, you prefer a more relaxed, low-key environment, rather than the hustle and bustle of a wild night in the city. You tend not to talk a lot, but when you do people listen, because when you say something it has meaning. You are not seeking the limelight, usually you prefer to let the attention-mongers do their thing while you observe. In an unfamiliar setting, you tend to be cautious and shy while you evaluate the circumstances. You prefer to avoid conflict, so you do not put yourself into a threatening situation. Your shyness may be perceived as unfriendly, but that could not be further from the truth. People need to be patient with you and take the time to get to know the complex, private you.
 
Your Agreeableness: Candid VS Considerate
You are quite considerate. You are a popular person, aren’t you? Of course you are. You truly value harmony in dealing with others. People recognize your friendly, generous, and helpful personality. Your easy-going, agreeable nature makes you such a joy to be around. This is especially true in meetings or general conversations. The topic may become heated, but you are considerate of other’s feelings and you will find a happy medium in order to placate those around you. This is because you have an optimistic view of human nature and you realize that if you trust people with their decisions that they are not trying to hurt you or take advantage of you. This special and rare quality is also seen in your altruism. You enjoy helping others. To you it is not a sacrifice; to you it is fulfilling to help others in need.
 
Your Self-Control: Impulsive VS Cautious
You are quite impulsive. You are an independent thinker. You do not need a book of rules to tell you how to behave – you know inside what is right and what is wrong and you act accordingly. You are able to live life spontaneously, because you are able to make decisions without endless deliberation. In fact, when you and another person are making a decision, you are able to reach a solution fairly quickly while the other person has to cautiously plan every step. Eventually, they will agree with you, which is frustrating when your first impulse is usually the correct one in the decision-making process. You tend to be a little more casual, and you do not feel out of sorts when your home or office is not perfectly neat. In general, your life is pleasurable – you know how to have fun and will never be accused of being staid or stuffy.
 
Your Anxiety Level: Excitable VS Relaxed
You are very excitable. You do not like stressful situations. You tend to react emotionally to stress, which can lead to bad moods, or even anxiety, anger, or depression. You like to be treated fairly, and may become upset if you sense that someone is trying to cheat you. You may find urges and cravings irresistible to the point that you are giving into them even if you know you will regret it or feel guilty later. Sometimes you may feel uncomfortable in social situations, even thinking that others are judging you. This self-consciousness may show through as shyness, because you do not want people to think poorly of you. You tend to worry and are apprehensive in unfamiliar circumstances.
 
Your Openness to Change: Practical VS Imaginative
You are quite practical. You want just the facts – keep it plain and simple. You are practical, pragmatic and well grounded. You have no time for carelessness and impracticality. You prefer to keep your emotions to yourself, rather than exposing your feelings to the world. Life moves along much better for you when you can maintain a schedule and have routine in your life. Unexpected surprises and chaos are a major inconvenience to you. You tend to be conservative and are somewhat resistant to change. Others respect your ability to act properly in your everyday life.
 
The way you Think/Reason: Concrete VS Abstract
You are very concrete in your thinking. You tend to prefer the plain, straightforward, and obvious to the complex, ambiguous, and subtle. You might even regard the arts and sciences with suspicion, regarding these endeavors as abstruse or of no practical use. You believe that intellect should not be equated with intelligence, as intellect is an intellectual style, not an intellectual ability.

Social Class Discrimination.


Yesterday, My wife’s uncle performed Aqeeqa of his son. It is ritual of sacrificing goats in the way of ALLAH, so that no harm may hurt the new born baby. Reportedly he sacrificed 04 goats in a row.

I am happy for that. May Allah fill everyone’s cradle with sweet children. There is no comparison of having a child with any worldly belonging a man can have.

But I think he does not like me, the person who is uncle of my wife. I had invited him for attending my marriage, he chose not to attend my marriage ceremony. Then He also did not show up to visit her nephew – my wife- after a day or two , as normally uncles and aunts use to do that, here in our part of country. Giving excuse that he is busy in running a campaign for Elections-2013 in favor of right wing party Pakistan Muslim League (N). I did not mind.

And when now he got his baby, he did not inform me, when he was performing Aqeeqa the above explained ritual. Still he did not inform me while we live so near to each other. So what does this show? Simply that He does not like me as I belong to lower lower class . I swear, he himself is not anything worthwhile for which he should be proud of.  He is jobless, but he has some piece of land from which he use to draw his money, has a home here, that too is due to his agricultural land property. And he has got a brother in Qatar – Middle East, who use to send him money on monthly basis to get his home going.

But what stops him to be good with me, I don’t know. Sincerely, I even don’t mind that he excludes me , ignores me as I am invisible to him.

Her mother called me instead of him , for inviting me to the party with my wife. But this is not acceptable in our society. If there was a goodwill at his side, he had to invite me in person. I am sure , there would be many , to whom he will be persuading in person , to get them attend his extravagant ceremony. But like others he also sees me with prejudiced eyes of social status, of which I am surely too mean.

Here, I am fully agreed with what communists use to say. There is nothing like brotherhood or relations on equal footing. Here we are divided among the ruling class and ruled class. Even a prosperous , wealthy real brother does not want to interact with his less fortunate brother. He even don’t want to know how is living let alone helping him to improve his life. Real liberty, real independence is still a dream. We were a colony of Britain’s then; and now we are treated same but now from our own peoples’ hands.

Our society thats too much driven by the societal status of a man leads to make people corrupt. There is no flying for spiritual heights here. When most of the people feel like I feel , then they become ready to do anything to get that false,miserable status by doing anything that it takes, to just become wealthy, to posses many valueable things to show how ‘Respectable’ they are.

But we should not devalue our values, should not give into the bad practices or anything like that. If we just could manage to be real humans and adhered ourselves to the true path. We will ever have God’s support with us who is what this whole universe contains.

I discussed my feelings with my wife, she said , for her my respect is more important than to join his uncle’s party. So she decided on her own to boycott them. Whereas, I allowed her fully liberty to decide for herself. Its really great that she decided in my favor.

Corruption


Corruption hurts the poor most. By definition corruption means ‘utterly broken’. There are many forms of corruption i.e, bribery, favoritism,nepotism etc.

Corruption is as old as the human being. From the ancient period to modern times it has remained among societies forever. It has its influence more over the societies that are less educated, less aware of their fundamental rights. It is such a disease that like Cancer it spreads all over the body and make it dysfunctional. Islam has also condemned the corrupt practices and according to its belief the receiver and giver of corrupt money is destined to go into hell.

Corruption makes impossible for any country to prosper in a longer run. It neither cares for the past nor looks for the future. It just enjoys the benefit for the present.

Awareness about corruption is to be inculcated in the coming generations, for example, it should be the part of our childrens’ syllabus, wherein they are taught about the demerits of corruption and to raise them morally and make their aware of their responsibility to cater corruption. Maybe when kids use to raise the issue in discussion with the parents, this may cause to think their parents about mending their ways, as nobody wants to be hated by their own kids. It will be a change.

Big corruptions use to flow from top to bottom. For reducing corruption rate , it is the Government that has to take some major steps. Their should be some more responsive legislation that can convict the guilty efficiently and faster. Their should be separate courts, I mean mini courts like Tribunals, who use to heart these cases on fast track basis. One or two examples can really send an effective message to the society about being reluctant to corruption or to face the consequences.

But only good legislation and punitive practices cannot be fruitful until you don’t fill that gap that corruption use to bridge. i.e Government needs to overhaul the pay structure, security and justness. Merit should be the order of the day. Specially care must be given to the poor section of society. Revival of trust and merit can really change the scenario of our society. When by merit, able person will hold the offices, and their will be no cover up or compulsion that is due to be given because one was already involved in corruption so he has to give back the favor. Honesty doesn’t care the fears or favors.

According to study of Alexandria University, their is a strong relationship between Culture and Corruption. A culture based on nepotism, favoritism gives birth to corruption. Corruption is considered as the fundamental part of their daily lives. For example, in our country, a person who is designated at a higher post, finds it absolutely right to give favor to his own son, in fact he thinks that he is helping his  son to get him hired at a good post, through exercising his influence. Though he will never charge his own son for getting him job. But it is a corruption in its own kind. However, it is felt good by the larger society the way his son was appointed.

Another major cause of corruption in our society is ‘Uncertainty’. Due to misgovernance and misappropriation of resources their is uncertainty about the present and future. Due to lack of accountability and justice, people feel extremely uncertain over the acquisition of their own rights. They don’t that the system alone can help me to get there where they want. From admission in university to getting job in government or private sector they need to have their own influence or interference to get the job done. Hence it proves that for having a minimum corruption you have to have a high uncertainty avoidance culture.

Distance between the Power between the ruling and public also determines that how much corrupt the country will be. Our country has mainly been ruled by the dictators on country level and by Waderas, Chaudhrys at the societal leve;. They both like to have a long distance between them and their public. This strategy deters the public for the ‘right to know’. In such a situation where people cannot ask about how their tax money is being spent. Whether the budget they allocate is rightly being used or its just in papers?. Absence of such scrutiny and pressure from the public side gives free hand to the rulers to do corruption as much as they want. To deter them for doing this, there are two pillars of the state who protect the rights of common man. One of them is Judiciary and the other is Media. Judiciary makes sure that the law is prevailing over all and being exercised on each citizen of the country and media use to highlight the loopholes, big corruption scandals and make the rules answerable to public at large. Media has power to change / make the opinion of the people in a certain way. So after the emergence of powerful media and free judiciary has given a hope that the corruption rate in Pakistan will decrease to its lowest in coming 10 years.

Its impact has already started to show. According to Transparency International survey , Pakistan has improved its overall image by 12 steps. Thats a remarkable improvement in just one year. The worst hit countries are Afghanistan, Somalia and Nigeria. However, Transparency International has also mentioned that there is no country in the world to which they can say that it is corruption free.

We have to make institutions powerful , independent of any pressure and interference. Such independence and ability to exercise the functions they are obliged to do will give a blow to corruption. When institution will stand on their own and won’t be depended on anyone’s instruction or interference, just then we can believe that merit will prevail over all the EVIL forces.

It also recommends that , literacy ratio by improved and people must be given their fundamental rights. This is a long term prospect, and time has come to kick start the process just now.

Still I rise – Maya Angelou – Poetry


You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may tread me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I’ll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you? 
Why are you beset with gloom? 
‘Cause I walk like I’ve got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I’ll rise.

Did you want to see me broken? 
Bowed head and lowered eyes? 
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you? 
Don’t you take it awful hard
‘Cause I laugh like I’ve got gold mines
Diggin’ in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I’ll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you? 
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I’ve got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs? 

Out of the huts of history’s shame
I rise
Up from a past that’s rooted in pain
I rise
I’m a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

Conversation with Myself


Hello. 

I am really happy these days because I don’t have time to look at my sorrow or lackings. 🙂 

Have got some extra time to prepare for my Provincial Competitive Examination – Provincial Superior Services Job. Please note that its my final chance to be recruited by Government as the maximum age for applying for Government Jobs is 28. 

I have bought many books and as much as I read them I feel its just that I was made for. I love reading books, memorizing things and be in the know of all the world around me. 

Yesterday I was reserved for making house in order, paying debts, purchasing some books, and everything. Electricity is also a limiting factor as there is no certainty that I will be able to read in night or not. But don’t worry I have emergency light that is fully charge and remains all the time. 

I have been off to facebook since two months now, because it is officially forbidden and at home I don’t have internet connection. I have some friends to whom I desperately want to talk and I don’t know whether they keep some feelings for me or not. Virtually I am dead!. 

Just once that I passed the examination, I will have everything back which I lost amid trying times and less budget. INSHALLAH. 

 

 

My vague thoughts


Adversity is blessing in disguise

It is said that Adversity is blessing in disguise for it gives you an opportunity to have first hand experience of handling and combating difficulties. It makes you the real man. For all the legends who are there, are because of their proximity with adversity. These were the adversities that they overcome and filled our libraries with the autobiographies and lot of inspiration, they have left for us to be inspired.

A rich man who came in this world with having a silver spoon can never tell his stories worth listening. Whatever he achieves is prejudiced to have been through his material influence and overwhelming wealth that he used as a mean to reach his ‘goal’.

I love to be the part of this less privileged class ,that is in existence since the birth of this world. Because being poor, needy, keeps me motivated to learn , to acquire, to struggle, to remain in shape and in the know that there is a lot to do, which occupies me to the extent that I don’t have time / energy to waste myself in sinful activities or for being a source of discomfort to anyone.

But at the same time , I feel enraged for the injustice this world does. It has not provided the equal opportunities to everyone. Opportunities are scarce and limited and to fulfill one’s dream is almost impossible, notwithstanding what the motivators and intelligent men have to say.

Until we don’t have basic necessities fulfilled, how can we make a society that is pious, honorable and who can be said like brothers to each other. Where there is lot in inequality over distribution of wealth, how there can be peace? Where one’s children are being fed well, are warm and at the same place, leaving some streets,the others children are cold and hungry, how can this world then expect that there be a harmony, a universal brotherhood? Just How!

World has suffered at the hands of despotic leaders and have endeavored many struggles to lessen this difference. Many strategies have been expedited, but I don’t see any good effect of that on the common man. Even we got our sweet homeland in the name of Islam, but what happened, am I any better in my circumstances? Did my dear country has given me rights, safety, security, liberty or even has any plan for me? I don’t know!

Right after the partition of Idian Sub-Continent, my beloved country has fallen in the hands of powerfulls i.e. the influencers, Jagirdars, Politicians, Monopolists, Blackmailers, Rioters hand. Where is my share in it? I am living a life no one of you can even think to live. I have been completely denied from the basic necessities of the life. At least in this 21st century, I should have been awarded basic necessities, as I am living no better life than my ancestors lived.

Sadly, with the passage of time, these opportunities will shrink and shrink more towards the zero point. People at the top have lost humanity  and leadership skills. They are even more hungry and greedy than a common man is. By observing them, it feels like, that all the wealth of the money are going to disappear, and they are in hurry to accumulate it for themselves. Actually, this was thing which Islam negates. Islam came with the purpose to establish equality among people and thereby create a society that have a sound economic system by discouraging accumulation of wealth and resources. Followers remained, but Islam itself is just a symbol now.

In my own country,I am living like I am in some foreign country, of which I am not an ordinary citizen. I have to manage to pay all the direct and indirect taxes, have to look after myself and my family’s health on my own risk. There is so security to me in any way. They don’t mind if I get rich by odd means, and they still don’t if someone robs me. Where is the government, statesmanship?. Anything can happen to me and I don’t know what will happen next.

Suppression, that history says were done by the infidels upon us the Muslims, is now being done by my fellow believers. This is really more cutting than being mistreated by the non believers. I have just lost my mind by thinking this again and again.

Now the question is how to come over this and beat the cruel system of administration that has no loop hole for the less privileged person to come up and stand to their level. Its quite hard – really hard. But here is what ‘faith’ in God’s existence will help me. I have to believe that God can help me and is with me. And someday , He will listen to my prayers and I will overcome this insecurity and uncertainty that has engulfed me all over. Else, I have almost no hope left in the man. They can’t be so good to come ahead and share the grief, then can just see you dying, or suffering and can pronounce ‘oh’ I am sorry to know.